Sitting In The Dark

About 2:30 a.m. last night a very large tree fell near my house. It snapped a power pole in half, sending the upper portion across my driveway. Two transformers blew up nearby. There were sparks and flashes and booms.  Then the whole neighborhood faded to black until daylight.

Welcome to Monday!

In the morning, large trucks came to repair the damage, one carrying a new pole. I managed to escape out my neighbor’s driveway, the opposite way down the road, to go to work. Late in the afternoon I called my neighbor.  He said the lights were back on.  Cool!

By the time I came home in the evening it was dark again.  And unfortunately… I quickly discovered that while my neighbors on either side had power, my home did not. (sigh).  The power surge fried my breaker box. I Thank God it didn’t catch my home on fire.

So, tonight I have no lights.  I sit here typing by candlelight.  To my great benefit, my neighbor ran an extension cord from his house over to me so I can run my fridge, modem, router, and laptop.  Awesome neighbor!  I feel loved.  I’m glad I ran a cord over to him when something similar happened to him! 🙂

Coincidentally… (or perhaps not) this isn’t my first time sitting in the dark this week. The first time wasn’t caused by a tree unleashing electric mayhem through my neighborhood .  It was spiritual. I had to sit and contemplate some backsliding choices I made. I needed to humble myself, confess the sin, and ask God’s forgiveness.

The Lord’s forgiveness doesn’t excuse my behavior, nor take away the regret. It simply turns me around and heads me back in the right direction.  It restores honest fellowship with him, allowing him to push out the darkness I let in and replace it with light.

It’s not so bad sitting here tonight in my mostly darkened house; not like sitting in spiritual darkness.  That is a sad, empty place to be.  How thankful I am for the Light.  He leads me beside still waters.

In The Light – DC Talk

© Sparrow Song, Written by Charlie Peacock

I keep trying to find a life
On my own, apart from You
I am the king of excuses
I’ve got one for every selfish thing I do

What’s going on inside of me?
I despise my own behavior
This only serves to confirm my suspicions
That I’m still a man in need of a Savior

(chorus)
I wanna be in the Light
As You are in the Light
I wanna shine like the stars in the heavens
Oh, Lord be my Light and be my salvation
Cause all I want is to be in the Light
All I want is to be in the Light

The disease of self runs through my blood
It’s a cancer fatal to my soul
Every attempt on my behalf has failed
To bring this sickness under control

Tell me, what’s going on inside of me?
I despise my own behavior
This only serves to confirm my suspicions
That I’m still a man in need of a Savior

(repeat chorus)

Honesty becomes me
[There’s nothing left to lose]
The secrets that did run me
[In Your presence are defused]
Pride has no position
[And riches have no worth]
The fame that once did cover me
[Has been sentenced to this Earth]
Has been sentenced to this Earth

Tell me, what’s going on inside of me?
I despise my own behavior
This only serves to confirm my suspicions
That I’m still a man in need of a Savior

(repeat chorus 2x)

[There’s no other place that I want to be]
[No other place that I can see]
[A place to be that’s just right]
[Someday I’m gonna be in the Light]
[You are in the Light]
[That’s where I need to be]
[That’s right where I need to be]

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